Rachel's Wonderland

Valentines 2011

2011-02-14T01:14:00.003+08:00

算一算, 这是我第24个的单身情人节..........

24年了.... 哇! 我好老哦......

其实情人节跟我一点关系都没有.......... 因为我从来都没有跟我爱的和爱我的人过过.... How pathetic is that?

我发现在这些特别的节日我都不敢出街........ 因为我觉得很malu... 好像其他人会看着你一个人很奇怪....... 还有一点我一直不敢承认, 也不敢面对就是我不敢在陌生人面前承认我没有拍过拖, 有一次我还自己编故事... 真的好丢脸!!!!!!!!!

其实有时候我讲一个人可以过得很好是在掩饰.... 谁不想身边有个人陪?? 谁不想身边有个人可以分享? 我只能跟自己对话, 自己给自己意见, 自己跟自己分享......

有人会觉得我把自己的门关得太紧了....... 我也以为是..... 可是现在我发现其实是根本没有人要来开我的门.... 这个残酷的事实我必须接受........

我越来越觉得我应该找不到了....... 过多几年我就要30岁了....... 那时候才有初恋会不会太可悲了?? 不管了, 就算死我也要做个fashionable,爱打扮的老姑婆!!!!

Happy Valentines.....

PEace out.................

2010-09-08T00:45:00.000+08:00

First pic taken after I take my bb... :)

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一辈子的承诺

2010-08-16T23:57:00.004+08:00

老婆婆和老公公的年紀老邁,老公公的身子一直很差,而老婆婆的身子卻尚算壯健.

因老公公身子問題,他倆並沒子嗣,老婆婆卻很害怕孤單,常常擔憂老公公死後要獨自面生活。老公公常捉弄老婆婆,叫老婆婆在他死後再尋找伴侶,這個玩笑,總令老婆婆感到心酸。

後來,他倆在一次行山時,老公公跌倒了,以後也不能步行,需要坐輪椅,手也不能再動了,所以連吃飯也要有人在旁餵吃。原本已受百種病魔節磨的老公公一下子情況就變得更糟糕,他每天都需要老婆婆餵他吃飯,什至連大小二便也要老婆婆照顧。

又沒有什麼親人在身邊,日子雖然難熬,可是他倆好像比以前更甜蜜。

直到有一天,老公公被証實患上癌症,現在,他除要克服生活的不便外,還要接受物理治療和疾病帶來的痛楚。

醫生慎重地問老公公:「你要選擇安樂死嗎?」老公公笑了笑回答:「不!我相信我能活下來的。」

可能疾病初期帶來的痛楚不大,但到後期,一個體弱的老人家還熬得下去嗎?醫生不禁憂心起來。

老婆婆雖然大受打擊,可是仍很樂意照顧老公公。但看著老公公的臉色一天比一天憔悴,蒼白,老婆婆的心很酸很酸。

有一次,老婆婆認真地問老公公為什麼不接受醫生的建議,老公公回答:「因為我是男人嗎,那可以選擇像自殺似的安樂死?

老婆婆微笑回答,一個大男人,要妻子每天清理大小二便的,還在逞強呢!其實老婆婆是十分高興老公公沒有選擇離她而去。

又過了若干日子,老公公的情況已變得很壞很壞,老婆婆每天看見在床上抽搐的老公公比死更難受,便嗚咽哭了起來,她竟親口求老公公選擇安樂死。老公公並沒有回答,只是緊緊捉著老婆婆的手。

醫生護士都很驚訝,這老人家的跟病魔對抗意志真的很頑強。大約他承受了很多吧!大家都不禁地想,到底什麼使這個老人家那麼堅持活下去呢?

大約在一個明媚的上午,老婆婆睡著了,再也喚不起來了。

葬禮上,老公公沒有哭,護士把老公公推到老婆婆的面前,老婆婆靜靜地睡著了,老公公突然微笑了一下。護士很詫異,她衝口而出地對老公公說:「我們都以為你是因為不捨得老婆婆才那麼堅強地活下去呢!」老公公又笑了一下回答:「你說得對呀,就是因為對她的不捨,才堅持活了下來,因為害怕看見她哭泣,因為害怕她因失去我而感到孤單...」

老公公又接著說:「這妮子呀,我從和她結婚那天起便對自己許諾,一輩子都不讓她哭泣的,大約她不知道吧,那次她看見我在床上捲曲,哭了起來,那時我的痛苦,比病魔對我的節磨還要難受...白頭到老嘛,我們做到了,遺憾的是,我始終令她為我哭過一次...」

護士在老公公的身後,扶著老公公的輪椅,眼淚不禁無聲無色地掉下。

又過了一兩天,老公公也睡著了,帶著因受病魔節磨而變得蒼白的臉,竟帶著一絲慈祥的微笑...

結婚,是人生的必經階段,

是相戀的進化,

是愛過的證明,

可是又有誰能堅持承諾至永久?

老公公沒有對老婆婆用言語許諾,

但他用的,卻是一輩子的時間去證明,

雖然他笑說他始終做不到,我卻認為他真的履行了婚姻的承諾。

口口聲聲說愛說喜歡,事實上,你到底灌注了多少愛?

口口聲聲說要永永遠遠愛著一個人的,你們有幾次真的堅持到底呢?

有時承諾,是不必說出口的 ........

2010-08-16T01:52:00.003+08:00

或许是我太在意吧。。。

或许是我在钻牛角尖吧。。。

看不开令我很辛苦

或许我应该放下。。。

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2010-08-15T17:26:00.001+08:00

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23岁的生日

2010-06-26T00:09:00.002+08:00

说真的, 我并没有很喜欢过生日....
Maybe I'm not used to be the center of attention....
从小我好怕站在中间全部人对着你唱生日歌, 然后切蛋糕.....
每次到生日的时候, 我总是很感触, 埋怨自己做得不够多......

首先, 我要感恩我的父母, 教育我, 抚养我长大, 我下一辈子再也找不到这么好的父母....
谢谢你们无尽的包容和爱..........

感恩我的兄弟姐妹, 没有你们从小到大的陪伴, 我会很孤单....
没有你们的欺负, 不会有现在坚强的我.. (哈哈, 好像我欺负你们比较多hor?) =p

感恩我的姐妹们, 我原本以为我是个非常难懂的一个人, 因为我真的不擅于表达..... 但这么多年下来, 你们已经把我的底牌看得清清楚楚了.... 哈哈, 我死定了! =)
我真的好幸运, 从中学到大学都有你们的陪伴, 一路走来, 经历的东西并不少,
谢谢你们陪我走过高和低处.......

I really couldn't ask for more ard....
我很幸福, 我应该满足! =)
感恩!

2010-05-20T01:23:00.002+08:00

现在所拥有的幸福并不是永远的
现在所经历的悲伤并不是永远的

所以说
幸福的朋友们, 先别那么高兴
悲伤的朋友们, 先别那么伤心

幸福的朋友, 应该要好好把握现在有的幸福, 因为迟早quota会用完的
悲伤的朋友, 别气馁, 因为雨后很快就会有彩虹, 加油!

2010-05-18T00:20:00.002+08:00

我病了......
我好像病了.....
我好像病得不轻...........
因为我逃避,伤口变得越来越大....
不敢勇于承认自己病了才是最致命的!
如果是这样的话, 我看我已经是末期了......

2010-05-05T22:26:00.002+08:00

Why do I care so much?
Why do I care so much?
While others dun give a damn, Why do I care so much?
Why????

淡了。。。化了。。。

2010-05-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

原来你也不过如此，是我自己把你想的太过好，你远远比我想你成熟的程度差太多了。。。
或许我太desperate了吧。。一看到稍微比较好的就会把自己理想的样子各方面都放在那个人的身上，会觉得，‘他好像好害羞，他好像好谦虚‘。我一碰到害羞和谦虚这两样就死了。

给第二个的你：
你好像人间蒸发了，你也应该把我给delete了吧？
我不是还依恋着，我只是好奇。。
不过这一切已经不重要了。。。
因为我现在过得很好，生活很充实。。。

感恩

Single forever

2010-04-13T00:18:00.003+08:00

Am listening to Boyz II Men's song 'I'll make love to you', suddenly have a thought tat I'll be single forever.... Sometimes I had this vision in my mind, when I'm in my 30s or 40s of age, I'm still alone, working so hard to maintain a better life, hopefully still have my can can be my side, surrounded by nieces and nephews and keep kena the 'red bomb', attending frens' wedding, seeing them get marry then have kids around while I'm still the same.... Possible huh?? I din say it wasn't a bad life though, its just not the same as I've visioned since I was small.... I still remember I did filled in one of the ambition columns as housewife while I was in primary school... hahahaha

Started feeling the relatives' pressure... they definitely will ask u when they see u 'got bf or not oh??' I have to make fun of myself b4 they do, but deep down my heart is hurt.... Its like they pour salt on ur wound... but I din blame them coz their intention just to care abt u...

Am trying so hard to be as normal as others...
I think I'm destined to be 矛盾 all the time coz there are 2 very diff personalities inside me, I can be very joyful one time yet pessimistic at the same time, sometimes I dun even know myself anymore....
and this 矛盾-ness kinda stopping me from taking initiatives... and I hate this!

I really forget the feeling of being loved, pampered, cared... People who had been loved and pampered all the time won't understand...

Still thinking when 'the one' who willing to discover the diff side of me will appear? coz I've waited.. waited.. yet waited.....

I'm not afraid of being older, I'm afraid of being lonely when I'm old.....

慈济

2010-04-10T22:51:00.002+08:00

今天跟随同事出席了慈济的一个聚会，真的是获益良多！同时也让我想了很多，检讨自己其实自己做得并不够，还有很多地方需要改正。很谢谢同事带我认识慈济这个团体，给了我很多启发。

我相信绝对不是三分钟热度，我有个想法想做志工，，去帮助外面需要帮助的人，其实我心里压抑着许多的爱，我希望可以奉献给需要的人。

其实以前（中学的时候）我曾经想过 after form 5 要当social worker, I also dunno why I got such thought back then, unfortunately I don't have the opportunity and motivation coz tat time was just thoughts oni... But now, guess its time... I'm graduated, had a job and most importantly I got spare time, so why not spend some time involve myself in such meaningful thing?

My oni concern is I do question myself a lot, 'Do I really commited?' I worry i'll find another job in the future then I don't have time anymore coz when u really commited to be volunteer, u can't quit easily, its a life time job...

But I guess just not to think anymore, just do watever I feel like doing NOW, if not I won't move forward if I keep thinking the consequences after I've made my choice...

Hopefully I can inspire ppl around me and bring a lot of love to everyone!! =)
Peace out!

2010-03-24T00:45:00.001+08:00

Bravo! Bravo!
I like her voice very much........

启发

2010-03-19T00:34:00.002+08:00

在这两天突然有许多启发。。。。
觉得自己其实可以再有用一点，可以有贡献一点，因为现在的我好像好吃懒做，得过且过的感觉。

昨天看了慈济的刊物，里面有说，‘我们去庙里拜拜，通常都是祈求和许愿，希望神明可以保佑他们，但是我们有没有想想，与其去祈福，不如造福。’ This is not the full interpretation, tats just wat I understand.

去庙里祈求神明保佑是可以得到心灵上的平静，可以心安。
做好事，行善，去造福也很重要。存好心，做好事。
我在想要不要去当义工，去感受我的生活以外的世界，开阔我的视野，而且也能改善我暴躁的脾气。何乐而不为呢？
最重要是可以帮到人。
或许你可以加入我的行列。。哈哈

Terrified

2010-02-26T17:39:00.002+08:00

Like tis contestant.. Like the song.. She sang it really well.. and I had goosebumps every time I listen to this song..... Hopefully she can make it through..=)

初三

2010-02-19T22:23:00.002+08:00

原本开开心心跟朋友出去喝东西, 由于喝了几杯不舒服, 在半夜的时候起身想吐, 没注意到厕所的地上有水, 结果就摔倒, 眼角撞到马桶, 接着血就好像开水龙头般涌出来, 心里面想着 ' 这次死定了, 一定破相了. '

睡在隔壁房间的姐姐也被惊醒了, 可想而知有多大声吧.
眼看血已经不流了, 就等到天亮, 妈醒了以后再打算.
妈说还是去clinic see doctor safer....
我真的很害怕缝针,但是医生说缝针后的疤痕比较漂亮,
我的眼角就这样地挨了三针.

I guess its the most memorable CNY ever!
The scar will stay forever... and I'm worry!
Really regret of drinking.....

really dun dare to see the stitch, so ask doctor cover it with plaster

chin oso kena but luckily just bruise

~The End~

PS: Some of my frens really cant believe wats is happening on me coz we just went out tat nite
and got one particular one even feels like laughing (i will remember u forever!)

初二

2010-02-16T00:15:00.002+08:00

Today watched the 72 tenants of prosperity with siblings... So funny man! Can't stop laughing.... =) One of the best CNY movies ever... =)

已经察觉自己自暴自弃很久了,已经踏入2010的年头了, 也该觉悟了吧!
2009一整年已经浪费掉了,
今年也迈入23岁的我, should have achieve something, haven't I?
目前最重要的应该是减肥了吧? (连我的家人也看不下去了) 我应该要有一点羞耻心吧?
已经肥到一个地步了,总该要控制一下了吧.
PS: 已经不好意思再说要减肥了,因为已经讲过无数次了

除此之外, 在2010年里面, 我还想找到一份工作.
我之所以迟迟没有出去找工作, 某一部分是因为不够自信心.

我相信当我有足够的自信心, I can achieve whatever things I want to achieve and I believe I'm able to......
Lastly I hope I can do it no later than this year =)

We are the World

2010-02-15T01:12:00.002+08:00

初一

2010-02-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

整天只是待在家里, 跟兄弟姐妹们打打闹闹, 说笑话, 也蛮好的, 外面的天气, 不出去也罢了.

看了报纸的生肖云程, 肖兔的会有桃花运, 而且是很多!
看来这对我来说应该是一则好消息吧.

tmr going to watch 72 tenants...
peace out.....

2010-02-13T23:37:00.002+08:00

Had a dream...
In the dream, u turned ur back on me and talked to the other girl instead.....
没想到在梦里的我也是那么地自卑。

总觉得爱情离我很遥远，尤其是看见身边的朋友一个个都找到另一半，自己突然觉得好彷徨。
原本不担心的我变得担心了，
原本抱着期望的我开始放弃了，
原本乐观的我变得悲观了，

‘我心里包覆的壳谁懂得
只是一层保护色
或许爱情离我太远了
快要记不得多久没有哭了
为什么把自己隔绝了’

抱歉的说，现在的我好像随时随地都武装着自己，就像螃蟹的钳子一样，每当人靠近，它都会以为是攻击。

CNY

2010-02-13T22:49:00.006+08:00

特别喜欢年三十的年夜饭，围在一起吃饭，今年有一点不同的是，多了一位小成员，哈哈。
Everyone will put on their smile whenever sees her...
She is no other than Elesse 叶巧恩，my niece.
有了她，家里的气氛变得不一样。
期待她赶快长大。=)

PS: 她有一个特点就是很喜欢开着嘴巴，伸出舌头。

She loves when ppl hug her

She

2010-01-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

She's watching movie alone
She's window shopping alone
She's driving alone
Simply bcoz, she got no one to be by her side....

When she's going to watch movie without any accompany, she's scare of other ppl will know tat she's watching movie alone and feel pity abt her.....
When she goes window shopping, she tends to walk faster as she thinks herself very weird when surrounded by couples........
When she's driving during raining days, she felt horrified and helpless when she can't see anything from the windscreen.... she got no guide but just rely on herself....

She felt tired of acting strong
She felt lonely sometimes
She felt helpless
She felt ugly
She forget how to smile sincerely and naturally from within
She doesn't want sympathy from others

White horse

2010-01-22T00:38:00.002+08:00

Like the whole lyric of this song....

Specifically this one

I was a dreamer before u went and let me down
Now its too late for u and ur white horse to come around

I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well

............

2010-01-22T00:07:00.003+08:00

Back in action again.....
Actually there is no reason for me to abandon the blog as I'm not busy at all....
Somehow I just dunno wat to write.... coz I'm not like the other bloggers (the usual ones), they just write watever they want without care abt other's feelings...
Why can't I? How I wish I can just like everyone else, be true to myself, just watever shit I wanna write
I just scare sometimes.....

Why some ppl can write bad abt u but still be nice to u when they meet u in person?
Somehow I kinda understand why they doing this though.....
At least they've found a way to release and help them to be back on track....
At least they're true to themselves
ME? Guess I'm just more coward than them...
I'm acting ok outside but not ok inside
I'm acting strong coz I don't want to let ppl know actually I'm fragile inside

I always say ppl fake
But somehow I the FAKEST among all......

I had a dream

2009-09-08T23:24:00.002+08:00

Had a dream last nite, got awaken by it, had some thoughts about it......
All this while, I tot I made myself very clear but certainly not
It is because the dream I had was totally opposite of wat I tot all this while
Normally we couldn't remember a thing of the dream after we wake up, could we?
But this one, I still remember very clearly....
I tot I've made a very clear stand point but actually I was just avoiding to accept the truth.....
Its like being an ostrich, they used to put their head into a hole, left their body being exposed and thinking their enemies wont find them... stupid huh?
Tats what I'm doing now.
I'm always acting like I don't worry on finding my significant others
But the dream showed tat actually I am worry, I am scare
I'm scare of nobody wants me.....

Omg!!!!

2009-05-29T01:47:00.002+08:00

Omg... I had discovered something shocking abt myself today!!! Actually I knew deep down in my heart but I just ignored it since long time ago..... Guess I need to accept the fact now.........

Ya, I oso say wanna start a new life ler,, this la tat la.... sorry to say.. my engine still hasn't start... I dunno I will procrastinate till when... Procrastinating really is wat I am doing now, it doesn't seems like it has due date like assignments..... my due date of starting a new life/chapter has been always postponed.... and I am really had no clue where is my motivation?????

I'm young now, I'm not supposed to waste my time, I have to go out and explore new things and yet I'm feeling old these days..... I'm turning 22 next month, number 2 always is my lucky number but so far my life still blank as it is.... I know I should do something abt it...

I will start something today, bit by bit, it will become a mountain I believe....
Cheers =)

Love Life

2009-04-24T00:04:00.002+08:00

Hope this will be an inspiring one....
Enjoy watching
For me, I cant afford to watch this for second time...
Love life everyone

Sunday

2009-04-05T17:18:00.002+08:00

I used to like sunday coz it will be probably the most chilling day...............
BUT now I freaking hate sunday!
I would just rather stay alone
Everything outside seems will piss me off....
I just wanna chill with my family can?
Damn...

Present tense

2009-03-09T21:49:00.003+08:00

Now....

Watever happened is past tense already
I'm looking forward things which will be happening in the future
Although things didn't turn out wat I've expected but I'm not regret of wat I've done
I've learnt a lesson
I wanna turn a new chapter of my life
I know this need a combine of determination, motivation and direction and I'm stil working on it.....

As for now....
I wanna find a job which is suitable for me
I wanna have an interesting life..... chilling with my family and friends.. meeting new friends (if possible)
Go Go... you can!!! =)

暧昧

2009-02-07T01:01:00.002+08:00

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

Suddenly think of this song although its quite an old song... and personally i din think the singer has interpret this song well... as in din really punch my heart.... but the lyrics did describe my mood right now.....
Yet another inspiring nite for me.... being quite sentimental these days..... had a lot of feelings come from within but dunno how to express it...... expressing my feeling was really not my forte.... i'm really suck in it.... sometimes i think did every 'cancer' are like tat? being so protective until really scare of showing their true real side? coz scare being hurt? sometimes I do hate being a 'cancer', seeing my frens whom can really just say it out loud without caring a thing... so envy..... I dunno why I so concern on how ppl seeing me.... I'm lack of confidence... I feel the most relax when being alone at my room.... singing out loud in the bathroom.... do the things that I wanna do.... Ppl will think that I'm a 'freak', love staying at home, love playing with my cat.. I'm still loving it!!!

Miss the moment talking with u in the car
Miss the moment u take care of me
If these things happened back then, I'll definitely ignoring and avoiding it..... but guess now its not the case huh?
I wonder how, I wonder why
Been asking myself, will I say yes if u pop out the question again?
But the problem is I dun think you will ask the question at this point..... coz u dun even care ard.....
I din blame u for this coz I guess its my 'balasan' after all.....
Lastly, 2 words concluding... wrong timing.........

Lost

2009-02-01T23:07:00.003+08:00

All over the place.. totally lost although I looked totally fine and normal from outside.....
Dunno what I want now
Dunno what am I doing now
Dunno what it will be turn out when I act in this way

Lots of questions in my mind right now and I always seek answers out of it..... but ppl told me that sometimes u would never know the answer.... and u just move on.....

Now I'm like standing at the cross junction... dunno turn right or left.. helpless.....
Sometimes I just tell myself.....
Can I not to think so complicated?
Can I just don't care a thing and do wat I wanna do?
Can I not to jaga muka and do things which I wont regret later?

At this moment... I CANT... I still CANT....
Thank YOU for this.......

十字架

2009-01-02T18:12:00.002+08:00

很久的当年妈妈天天嘱告
好心交给人总可得到好报
过去按这教导埋头做
可惜随年长一步伤口随年多一道
伸出手搀扶遭松开手警告
交出心恋爱反得伤心的控诉
嫌弃我过份热情流露
或是仁慈得恐怖烫手爱意怕碰到
彷佛背上十字架舍我救赎未算好
越奉献得到结局越残酷
教我为免伤势再会变更糟
围墙变更高围住了自己的去路
防护罩终变成坟墓
将根本的我葬下去独自老
将真的我埋藏下去哀悼里独个渐渐老
多想光阴退後到旧时童年重渡
多斩钉截铁共处态度
我对你好所以你会对我好心里没旁骛
无奈这幸福的国度
已饱经灾劫无寸草
今天只得我野地里在独舞
要怎么的上路期望一天我能知道

Immediately fall in love with the lyrics when first heard... dunno why.. it was just the feeling......
not to say i'm so pessimistic.... its just the fact....... its true in many ways....

傻孩子

2008-11-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

傻孩子

看着你无暇的表情
我猜不透真实你的心
我一直冷静
却还是走不出这秘密
好孤寂
我开始失去了勇气
而你却好像在游戏
我假装清醒
看清你的心
终于我选择了离去
你像个孩子一样的被我看穿
在你面前我试着隐瞒
所有过去全都变成伤害
我像个傻子一样的被你出卖
一字一句都要我承担
到了最后我选择分开

I'm the silly one.......

Something funny

2008-11-18T19:33:00.002+08:00

Ignore my emo post..... Have fun watching this.... hahahahhahah

Singing 'We Belong Together''

Singing 'Touch my body'

明日再会

2008-11-12T05:48:00.003+08:00

为何并没泪光哭了
怀念你偶意都眼眉跳
没有开不开心平静的深宵
才静听到我也有心跳

纯真人人只经过一次
无奈到我发觉便到此

和你那天单车贴着背
回头一刹慨叹爱路太迂回
谁离去谁人接力去挽手都被支配
寻幸福的少女明日已无力再回
谁记得共你当初那样匹配
纯良的爱往往最後也碰灰
多一个得一个扮作满足
都学会明日那样当我去後悔

明明寂寞亦都欢笑
忘掉你当作心理治疗
遇上几多的他随着烟花烧
其实那个对我最紧要

还妄想坐於单车贴着背
原来早已错过了没法再追
不知道谁微笑或痛哭怎样分配
寻幸福的少女从前幻想都变灰
还妄想遇上身边对象匹配
寻求所爱变作了谁人前辈
识一个贪一个就当最佳的绝配
留待有二百岁至後悔

来日幼稚少女云上再会

* It makes me think of many things whenever listen this song... It's not easy to understand but yet it's inspirational.
From my understanding of this song, we tend to regret on things which we've done in the past..... by the time u realized, it was just too late and U can't turn back time

So, we have to grab the chance coz if not, it will just gone... and the chance will be available for the next person whom is ready... and u couldn't ask for the chance which has been available for u last time anymore!!! how ironic is tat huh?

So, do we just let it be? or make things work in the way that u want it to be coz destiny is in our hands?

I dunno....................................................................................................................................................

Faker living upstairs!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-07T20:08:00.006+08:00

How I wish that u're reading my blog now.....
Thanks for posting the blog to let us see tat how much effort u've put in.......
Bravo dude.. U have sacrifice a lot.. omg... we have misunderstood u since last time....... and U were right, u were doing all the jobs... u're the one who tolerate, U are the smartest....smart until the lecturer come and praise u BEFORE and AFTER the presentation wo........ so envy u leh...........

Satisfied? wats the purpose of posting this kind of bull shit out? Be a man la... plz.... If u are the one who dun care all the critiques which u think its wrong... then why u blog at the first place? explain so much for wat? does it make sense? if ppl who really know u tat well, they wont think u're that kind of person........

I know its none of my business... but I really cannot tahan anymore..... I dun wan state out what my jimui had done for the group.. coz I'm not as childish as u, sooner or later ppl would know, no point stating out..... I just wanna say tat dun think everyone is blaming on u, instead of looking urself wat have u did in order to make those people treat u like tat...................

YES, I'm talkng about u... so dun look back.. ITS U!!!!!! I'm a very direct person... wanna criticize, will say it directly not talking behind ur back..... and my jimui got her name which called Mien Yee (wat a lovely name u oso dunno ar), not one student in the group who is living in the same place with u...... I dun think tats a gentleman's manner...... GROW UP LA!!! Dun oni grow ur body with meat, and grow ur brain with shit... grow ur brain with knowledge plz......waste so much of time explaining, plz spend it on some meaningful stuff la......

THANKS!!!!!!

Silent night..... Lonely night

2008-11-06T03:10:00.002+08:00

Could not manage to sleep early.....
If manage to sleep early, but the sleeping quality is bad, kept dreaming....
But all the dreams that i've dreamt of were so not related to me... tot can dream of something meaningful de ma..... =P

The feeling of lonely start to come... dunno why... ppl who know me also know that i'm a cheerful person.... ya, I love to bring laughter into our gang of frens... but sometimes when u're alone, u started to think many things... things which had happened (u try to think why it happened) and things which u predicting or hoping to happen in the future....

As for now, thinking that I need to face challenges which I would have in the future by my own, really got a bit tired ard............. Not to say I'm those who must need someone right by my side, as my sis said (as girl, u rather being single for a long time than keep changing bfs)... tats very true... many girls now tend to flirt with many guys and making them fall in love, then keep changing bfs as they like...... I'm still waiting for the one, i'm not worrying now.... but just hope that there will be some colour in my 21st year of chapter of my life oni........

GambaTE!!!! exam is coming soon...... I MUST pass all the subs!!!!!!!!! I can do it.... and I must do it!! =) Good morning everyone...

Just F*** off k?

2008-11-04T21:54:00.002+08:00

why people always like to criticize others?
If you do, can u please don't do it so obvious in front of that person?
I understand there's no perfect human in this world, but who the hell are u to judge ppl like tat?
If u're not the perfect one, just shut ur mouth k?
The more u criticize, it just shows that u're jealous and ugly......
Plz la.. put a mirror in front u and see wats going to appear... its an evil... damn ugly evil k?

ya, i'm taking about u.... dun look back.. its u.... ganasai..
I'm doing things which I like
I'm eating food that i like to eat
I'm wearing clothes that make me look gorgeous
I'm talking the way I like
I'm walking the style I used to walk

If u dun like.. just f*** off k?
I dun care.. and stop criticize me and look at me like i'm the outlier whom tend to be different.....
I'm the way I am and tat's me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I din cross ur line and can u please do the same way too?

Damn it..

2008-11-03T04:03:00.002+08:00

Feel so fat..... so damn fat...
watever fats started to come out... big fat tummy... bye-bye wing... double chins...
omg... omg...

No more supper for me plz....
For my frens out there... plz dun offer me any food and asking me for lunch or dinner....
Plz dun let me buy snacks, biscuits anymore!!!!!
The problem is I dun have determination... only 3 mins heat.. sigh...
Krystal ask for jogging, I refused... coz there are so many damn flies!!!!! so irritating.. and so disgusting when seeing all those flies sticking on the back of the T-shirts of those aunties whom jogging.... and they even din notice that!!

I wanna take good pics when convo.... tats the oni convo I'll have in my life (I dun think I will continue my studies further though)
I scare my family din recognise when they come for my convo.......
Exam is coming!!
The clock is ticking....
and I'm still procrastinating.............................. =(

Mic & Nic Wedding

2008-10-29T21:38:00.006+08:00

Finally got the time to blog after have done my all my assignments (could the last assignments of my life, hopefully I can pass this sem, then I'm free from assignments!!!). Although exam is around the corner, have been burning the midnite oil, but still need to take a break.... =)

Updates
Went back to Malaysia during mid-sem break for 3 weeks as Yap's family are helding an important event which is my brother's wedding!!! Everyone in the family were so excited about it, relatives from everywhere (mum's side relatives from ipoh, aunty Ching and cousins, Walter from US, grandpa's sis from Hong Kong and China) are attending the wedding dinner.

Before that, initially I told my parents that I'll be oni come back for few days which is during the wedding dinner but actually I've changed my flight date to go back 3 weeks earlier.. haha.. coz wanna give them a surprise. Only my sis knew about this. I've been thinking how's the situation is going to be like when they see me appear in front of the house which they din expect it at all? hahaha but things din go as smooth as i tot... when mien and I arrvied at KLIA, her bf KC fetch us back to my house, no one at home!! how funny is that? I suppose by tat time everyone is at home but NO ONE... sigh! then went to mien's house and my sis will fetch me after she finished her work.... 'Yuan lai' my parents went out for dinner, so my sis brought me to the restaurant, she went in first then she asked my parents looked at the entrance and here goes me standing there... hahah... they looked stoned... I hug my mum first then my dad stood up and said 'why come back also never one de' then hug me... hahah... I think the last time he hug me its when I was small... its warm and touched... can see that he's very happy but he's trying to cover it up... so the surprise was a success!!

Back to the point, throughout the 3 weeks in Malaysia, its all about catching up with frens and family, shopping, eating Malaysian food, help bro about the wedding (finding emcee, live band, music, guest list, decoration) although there are some arguments with sis but anyhow need to thanks to people who helped too.... good effort!! Really dun feel like going back to Adelaide coz being far from the environment and people I used to be with, however I still have a lot of frens in Adelaide la but just u know, staying at Malaysia for 20 years, of course miss de ma... =P

The wedding first start off with Nicole's (my brother-in-law side dinner) one week b4 our side wedding dinner, then pre-wedding buffet at our house, omg, the houses is over-crowded man.... every corner of the house is full of people, kids running up and down the stairs, some ppl even sitting at the staircase coz no place for them to eat.... and there is not enough food!!! but there are still 50+ people haven't come yet!! So, I have to go out 'da pao' fried rice, KFC in order for the late-comers to eat.... drank a lot of red wine but end up who's drunk? (u should who u are.. lolz)

Then it comes to the morning session (jie xin niang) where the groom goes to the bride's house and take her back to our house. B4 departure, there is a ceremony where the 'dai kam jie' asked my bro to 'zam cha' to my parents and my parents need to help him put on the coat and then kissed cheek...(very funny when seeing my bro kissed my dad's cheek) ahhaha, then we depart to the bride's house... surely there will be have playing the groom session, then 'zam cha' session then back to our house....

The next day is the dinner at Oriental Pavillion Restaurant, we need to be ready earlier so that we can go to the restaurant to do the decoration and stay at the reservation place to wait for the guests to come.... its very tiring man... keep running here and there... keep finding the guests' list to find their table number.. almost fainted... finally the dinner start off with the couple's wedding march, leading by the flower boy and girl.... We hired an emcee and a keyboardist to do the talking and singing, so that the whole dinner wont be too boring.... time past very fast coz normally when u attending a wedding dinner rite, u'll hoping for the last dish then can go off ard but I must say when it comes to ur family member's wedding dinner, its different, coz u're part of it, u got many things which need to take care of, its not as easy as it seen....

So tired ard.. lets the picutures do the talking......

Here comes the toasting part... I like the bride's dress a lot, simple, nice and elegant.... and my bro is handsome too....

Its my dad's turn do the toasting... but why my mum's mouth is opened? hahaha.. she felt excited too i guess.... I like the backdrop very much!!

B4 my turn to sing on stage, here comes my brother's surprise to his wife, singing 'lum' song from the entrance till on stage... many ppl praise his singing like Jacky Cheung..... bravo... then its my turn to sing, specially dedicate to my brother and brother-in-law.... beside me its the keyboardist.. very nervous de leh.... I think I dun sing tat well that nite

Then its my mum's turn to start off the Karaoke session... Its her first time singing on stage, but she has been learning singing, just dun have the guts to go up on stage.... u're cute mum!!

Then when she finish singing, four of us give roses to her... hahahhaa

Taking pics with the girls and my cousin, Lee yee

Somehow we're look alike i think although I tot we're very different last time... of course she's prettier...... my lovely sister.... she got a bit high ard tat time... hug me wo.. ganasai

All the guests are gone tat time, just left us to pay off the bill...... while waiting, of course take pic la... sis mum and boon yee (thx for helping!)

mum and I really look alike hor? many ppl told me tat nite after seeing the slide where there are few pics of my mum when she's young... of course look alike la, i'm her daughter ma.... but hopefully my destiny is like her, can find a good hushband like my dad in the future.... Besides, I find my little bro grow up a lot (as in being more mature) when i'm back this time, no more small kids ard... can drive summore.... i like his hand touching my head.. hahah..... and Min, u looked stunning... hahah nice smile on u!!

This is Yap's family

This is the new Yap's family (welcome nicole) i like everyone's smile in this pic..... very nice.... hopefully got more new members adding into our family.... michael, u know wat I mean de la.. I want niece or nephew ar...

Thanks to u all who helped out tat nite.... =)

Here comes my dad and mum..... love u all

Picture of the nite!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will wash this pic big big and hang on the wall...
wait for me~~ I'm sure dad is not drunk tat time coz the dinner just started only....
its truly from his heart and wanna kiss my mum but he shy
hahahahahhaha

Special dedicate to Jie

2008-09-03T01:30:00.002+08:00

Dear jie,
Dunno what happen to u recently, dunno whether is because of the old thing u fan about... coz u din tell me whenever we chat in MSN.... until i heard from him.... but he din told me much but I can sense something not good..... I know from last time till now, whatever bad things happen, u oso keep it and solve it urself.... u always tat strong in front of me.... I just wanna let u know, i'm here ready to listen, to share ur burden, stress.... support u no matter wat......

if he really not worth for u to do so much of effort... all I can say just suan la, maybe now is really not the time to solve, time will prove... U'll have better life, u got a warm family behind u backing u up.....

love u sis.... =)

Happy birthday Mum!!

2008-07-26T12:28:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Ma......
Accidentally saw this pic in aunty mag's profile
like this pic very much, coz ur smile so cute!!!!!
so pretty and so young.. haha...
This pic shows we look alike very much.....
of course, coz i'm ur daughter.....
I dun always remember how old are u
coz u always looked young to me....
I just wanna wish u be healthy, nothing else....
thats the most important thing....
U said u will wanna wish to me graduate
and I will do that just for u....
U always the best mummy to me....
I'm so sorry for being so childish last time,
being impatient to u.........
quarrel with u....
that's the most regret thing I've did in my life
but u still take care of me as good as u can
be there for me no matter wat..
I know u'll forgive all these things coz i'm ur daughter
I'm sorry and I love u ma..... =)

Happy birthday jie!

2008-07-23T10:40:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday!!
know u gonna enjoy ur big day today.....
altough I'm being so far apart from malaysia,
but I will always be there for u no matter wat
love ya! =)

RE: results

2008-07-22T15:02:00.002+08:00

guess Guan Yin did heard my pray up there..... luckily manage to pass all the subs..still got one final sem to go..... hopefully I can pass through all the way.. I know dad and mum would really wanna see me graduate... and no matter how hard, how stress.. I will not disappoint them....

as for now, still waiting for winter course result. hopefully can ler...

will enjoy my this week holiday into fullest.... see ya! =)

Results

2008-07-14T21:27:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!! heard that results will be out this sat....
not sure whether its real or not
but i'm freaking scare!!!!

plz.......................... let me pass all the sub...
i'm worried.. but there's nothing much I can do
who can hear me?
who can help me?

Mid holidays post

2008-07-13T20:37:00.002+08:00

Having mid holidays now... nothing much can do, no where can go coz having 2 weeks winter course now.. crossing fingers hoping my results will turn out good....

usually I would say time flies and hoping it will turn back.. but this time, I hope time can past very fast.. so that I can get back to my family.. the place I used to be.... Not to say Adelaide is not a good place to stay.. maybe its just not my piece of land (rather than my cup of tea)... I wonder why some of the people can live their life very happily over here.... I still haven't find the reason being here (except for completing my studies). Yea, cant be deny that the atmosphere here is better (less dust), weather is colder, people are friendly.... without family beside u... its nothing!! really is nothing... I dun care ppl will say I'm not independent or wat.. watever.. I really dun care!!

Counting the days going back to Malaysia.. its exciting!! hehehehehehehehehhehhe.... cant cover my happiness.... over here, there's really not much can talk about coz there's nothing special happen on me.... sigh.. so sad to hear that huh??

Mei Wen was visiting us the past few days.... and we brought her went to so many places.. shopping, beach, dinner.... so happy to see her!! We went to Handoff one day... and we have tasted the most delicious German sausages and pork ribs.. omg, its really tasty.... and its a nice place to go.... small town, relaxing... We went to this magic shop.. selling all those things like magic spell and all that and Mien found there is a basket on the floor which filled with all sorts of packets of stone.. indicating different power... like love, business...... then me and Krystal were looking at each other, thinking whether wanna buy a packet of love stone see what will happen or not.. then we bought it.... haha.. at first of course I dun believe in this kind of thing.... but then try once also wont be that bad de la.........

Now still waiting for the love effect.... hehehe.... However, there is one incident happened which I found its kinda interesting, not sure whether its bcoz of the stone or wat la..... We went to Harbour Town Shopping Centre the other day... oh ya, b4 that, We had our winter course at City East Campus where seldom business students will be there coz business campus is at City West... during recess break, when I went out the lift, I saw him.... what a shock! coz I never tot that I will be seeing him in this occasion.... he got smile at me and so did I.. was so happy after that.. then we went to Harbour Town where its pretty far from city.... when I was in cotton on shop choosing shorts... I saw him pass by the shop.... I was like 'har, did I dream or something?' I cant believe I saw him here!! i mean Harbour town? I dun even saw him at Rundle mall but here? he did saw me too.. haha... what a day huh?

Its too early to say I had crush on him (coz we still havent talk to each other)... but just find he is interesting and hope got the chance get to know him...... I dun wan to fall into this love trap so soon...... have to look properly first... I dun wan to waste my time/energy on things which is not worthy for me to put effort in... its not that I dun wan myself to get hurt or wat.. its just not worthy....

Give me the power of determination!!! plz........................................... I need it very much!!

Happy birthday to me

2008-06-26T07:31:00.004+08:00

today is my 21st birthday and for the first time i celebrated in Adelaide. different? not really.... dun have cake prepared by my family, dun have dinner with my family, tats making me feeling not used to it....... looking at the photo on my desk, its my birthday pic with my family, few years ago.. all of us were younger than now and i realise that I didn't see them in person for quite some time. i miss them so much until i cant imagine.....

being 21 is just a beginning of facing the real world. am i feel excited about it? erm.. to be honest, not really. It doesn't change much, I'm still who I am... Being far apart from malaysia, I had explored many feelings, it can be very extreme.... I can be extremely sad, lonely, stress because without dad mum bro sis in the house, i'm not energised... i feel not comfortable... if there is one little tiny thing that make my day, i can be extremely happy.

the oni wish that i want is to pass all the subjects and graduate so that I can go back home as soon as possible.... thats oni thing that I wish for!!!!!! although i dun believe in god but guan yin.. plz make my wish come true....

lastly, thanks for my jimuis in the house... i really appreciate things that you guys have done to make me happy so that i wont miss home so much.....
thank you all for being so consideration
thank you all for being so understanding
thank you all for sharing my ups and downs

u guys will never know how much u all meant to me so I'm not use to say it out loud....

lastly, thanks for those who called from Malaysia (chen chuan, jia hau, chee wah, winson and KC) & members of sawadee club!!!! (lai fu, wai kit, kok hong, jeffrey and pyung!!) and Melbourne (thanks for the birthday song from mei wen, loris and yee lyn!) and those whom wished me through facebook, friendster, msn... every msg was so touched!!
U guys enriched my life! =)

Tell me Where it's hurt

2008-06-13T00:45:00.001+08:00

What is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you’re feelin’ this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby
Is it your heart
Oh, that’s breakin’ all in pieces
Makin’ you cry
Makin’ you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I’ll do my best to make it better
Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I’ll love all of the hurt away

Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling
Somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby
Give me a chance to put back all the pieces
Take your broken heart
Make it just like new
There’s so many things that I can do

[chorus]
Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I’ll do my best to make it better
Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I’ll love all of the hurt away

Oh I’m gonna take it all away, baby

Is it your heart
Oh, that’s breakin’ all in pieces
Makin’ you cry
Makin’ you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

[repeat chorus]

Tell me, baby
Tell me, oh yea
Is there anything I can do, baby
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I’ll love all of the hurt away

Sorry

2008-06-13T00:17:00.002+08:00

Sorry to dad and mum.....

I'm really sorry... sorry to disappoint you all...
I'm so helpless now and I can't do anything about it....
I cant come to u all coz I dun wan u all to worry.....
I got no one to talk to but just preparing myself to bear with the consequences....
Waiting for it to come yet still have to prepare for exams......

What a life?
The older u grow... more things u need to face.................

How i wish to be the Me back then? under the protection of parents, they will protect u from thunders, winds, storms......

Now?...... u have to be ur own... no excuses.......
Sadly to say that, thats what life called..........
Sadly to say that, I had realised this when i'm 21 years old.... how many years more to go?

I couldn't imagine...

OB presentation

2008-06-05T20:54:00.003+08:00

Been nervous for few days with just preparing for OB presentation.. worth 10%.... coincidentally, our group topic is called stress management..... u know wat? first time presenting in front of angmos is not easy but luckily we got a kind lecturer.. bob.. he's very nice and luckily we asked him for taking photo with us... he seems happy and keep laughing.. haha.. how cute is tat

and luckily our group had presented better than expected and bob told us tat we're the best group among the rest.... so nice to hear that... and after tat we went out for dinner to celebrate our accomplishment and sing k afterward...

next up.. exam is coming soon.

Bob too happy ard... until cant see his eyes when he's smiling.. lolz

then we asked for another shot.... this time his eyes obviously looked bigger... and it is so warm when he hug us.. can see his hands>?
this is our group pic.. and the guy in the pic is Alan who is also our group leader.....

P.S: I Love You

2008-05-28T00:36:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching this movie.... i'm touched by it... it has wasted me many pieces of tissue papper... will read the book if i got the time.... it inspirates me to think that what will I do if i've lost somebody that i love? can i accept the truth? how will i deal with it? at this point, i dun think i'll have enough courage to move on.... coz the one u been used to be with, used to share ur ups and downs, the face u used to see when u open ur eyes in the morning... and all these suddenly gone... can u imagine it?

therefore, I'll have this thought in my mind... there's is no forever in this world.... i dun believe it... dun tell me tat u're going to love forever... do appreciate what u have now... we used to ask for more, we have to tell ourself tat we're lucky enough in wat we are....

suddenly miss the people tat i love so much....... they are the oni exceptional group of people that i will love them forever......................... its my family!!!!!!! ba.. ma.. i miss u all so much... and i know u all also miss me..... i'll be back home very soon.... =)

Finally

2008-05-23T02:47:00.002+08:00

After today, i'm totally get rid of u..... I finally can let it go........ Ur true colours has been shown and It made me felt so disapppointed on u... U just want to take advantage on me coz u knew that i'm a kind and nice person.....

Tot u were sincerely say hi to me coz we been not talking for a month plus..... but actually u were asking help from me.......................................................................................... maybe i'm thinking too much but this is how i feel now...........

This is the last post that i'm talking about u.......................... and from now on, u were just a fren of mine... a normal fren... nothing beyond that.......

Its time for me to show my true colours too............

Fatty me... =(

2008-05-18T02:20:00.002+08:00

I really need to diet.. omg.. cant accept me getting fatter and fatter and still not doing anything about it.... webcam with my mum just now, she still complaining about my round face... 'aiyo, say wanna diet wo, but the face still that round, eat less meat, eat more vege la'

i wanna die la... everything when mum saw me webcam also say the same thing... bro's wedding getting sooner and sooner.. but i still eat maggi in the middle of the nite, with my 2 great companions, krystal and mien.. deng....

I couldn't find any excuses to let me eat anymore... I dare to post this blog here coz i wanna let everybody know that I'm not good at controlling myself.. I wanna do something about it and prove that I can... I dun wanna be the fat pooi kwan anymore.. I going to be 21 this year.. I wanna turn a new chapter of my life with the brand new me...............

I wanna diet!!!!!!!! and I can do it!!!!!!! October.. wait for me ba!
EAT less meat and EAT more vege!!!!

2008-04-29T00:18:00.002+08:00

不能和你一起

结束还是原谅
爱永远搁在远方
眼神不会说话　只有泪光
你给过希望　怎么能忘
是你填满温暖
让梦想有了翅膀
教我如何控制　风的方向
让我每一天能飞到更远的地方
不能和你一起　拥有喜悦和悲伤
不管走多远　步伐都没有力量
不能和你一起　走往这世界　幸福方向
孤单的身旁少了坚强
只有简单感伤

是你填满温暖
梦想有了翅膀
教我如何控制　风的方向
让我每一天能飞到更远的地方
不能和你一起　拥有喜悦和悲伤
不管走多远　步伐都没有力量
不能和你一起　走往这世界　幸福方向
孤单的身旁少了坚强
只有简单感伤

So far i'm doing so good... been not contact with u since tat day.. although sumtimes when saw u on9, i'll purposely sign in and wait for u to chat but at d same time also hoping that u dun come and chat with me coz i scare u'll talk abt ur gf and i'm not sure i still can tahan or not.....

however, obviously ur personal msg ard explain everything.........knowing u're doing great and i'm happy for u though...... i'm the oni one who think too much... I wanna cry and release everything all out but i couldn't cry this time... i dunno why i cant? sumtimes i wonder why i'm tat strong? cant i just be a little girl and there's always a shoulder for me to lean on.. how nice is tat?
until when oni i can get rid of these? Is really tat HARD to find someone fall for him and he falls for u at d same time? MOVING ON LA... YAP POOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Letter for You

2008-04-22T20:14:00.004+08:00

I think its time for me to have a disclosure, knowing u wont read this so i'll express it all out here.....

I have to pull u out of my heart when i knew abt the truth. i dun wan to waste so much of time asking 'Why'.. why I deserve this kind of outcome? There is no answer, no reason... what have happened is happen ard, no point to ask why... Luckily I'm not that sober when u tell me the fact, within that few days, all the things that relates me and u all flash through my mind, i can't say that is our memory coz I'm the oni one whom care abt it but you wont.... coz u just treat me as a normal fren and now i'm going to treat u as my normal fren as well........

First time saw u was during my first year of uni.... i still remembered the first sentence u talked to me... my fren and I were waiting at the lift (act sneaking out from the boring block lec), and u were asking whether we're leaving and i said yes, and both of us went into the lift. From tat, i knew u probably taking same course as me so i might be seeing u around. However, i dun see u around after that.

My first impression of u was good but i dun have feeling towards u tat time, until during my second year of uni, i wanna sell off my previous text books to the juniors so i gave my number to the lecturer. After that, i received calls from strangers, the first call i received, i remembered is during lunch time, he's trying to negotiate the price with me and i said its ard very cheap and he said he'll call me back to confirm. When i back to coll, i found out that its actually you,and i was like 'oh, thats u' and ur reaction also the same... haha.. wat a small world huh? From tat time, I start notice u coz we're such 'you yuan'.

From that time, i knew who u are and same goes to u but we had not much keep in contact, basically just hi and bye when we met at coll..... until one day in d library, u were looking for calculator (u were having test and u forgot to bring), u were asking my fren whether she has it or not and she did lend to u, u asked how he going to return.. and my fren telling u that i'll be at coll tmr, then ask u to return to me... we exchange numbers and it begins...... I finally got ur num... =) Tot u'll call me after tat day, but accidentally we met at the lift so u just passed me the calculator. i remembered u were wearing cap tat day.

After that, we start to be frens, getting closer as in not just hi bye fren, did chat sumtimes, sharing own stories and everything went well..... Throughout the time, i'm not sure whether u knew that I had feelings towards u, i'm trying act as natural as possible and clearly i know that u were just treat me as good fren... but i was satisfied (at least I'm in the 'good' fren category). Do u know that everytime during lunch, when i got down to ground floor, I was always hoping to see u and looking forward to say Hi to u... with tat its ard enought to make up my day. I also dunno why I'm so silly, tat simple thing can make me happy ard. Anyhow, its fun though... everyday has to think of wat to wear, put on concealer and mascara, hoping u wont see my eyebag so clearly...

I used to be the one whom not taking iniatives but this time, I never tot i would be that brave...I still remembered the first movie we had.. although its 3 of us, maybe u dun dare to go out alone with me gua... but I'm brave enough to go by myself and drive late nite just to watch movie with u.... I was so nervous!! I was having exam tat time and all my jimuis were studied at my house, they were encouraging me to go out watch movie with u and i can see they were so happy for me.... I was so nervous sitting beside u.. u did talked to me sumtimes during the movie and I told u b4 tat u had a special smell, i did smell that when beside u and tats make u significant....

Then comes to my 20th birthday.... my frens were planning to give a surprise... I remembered tat day is my last day of my exam and i'm so tired after that, planning to go home and sleep all day long, tot they will celebrate with me the day after tmr... but my fren was asking me out for movie and telling me tat there will be little ppl watching coz everyone is not free.... I was so blur tat time and not expecting all of them act showed up and celebrate my birthday with me!! its all of them.... i knew they were all busy abt their studies but they still not forget abt my big day... When i opened the Karaoke door, i got shocked when i saw u coz i would never ever tot u'll be there.... (really have to thanks my jimuis for making this happen)... i'm so touched until now..... That day, i got the chance to take pic with u, just the 2 of us and b4 that i never tot it will happen to me.....

I dare to sms u first, talk to u first, but I dun dare to tell u wat i tot abt u.... coz i still think tats wat guys suppose to do instead of me. Sumtimes i do think tat u might know but u just act normal, but there is possible tat u just dunno coz guys are just blur...

anyway, until i've decided to come to Adelaide, I scare we'll keep less in contact and it did happened... u were busy and I was busy.... and there was one time, i dare to call u and asking how u doing, ending up of knowing the truth..... the truth tat i expect is going to happen but i dun expect at tis time but clearly it did... ya, u told me that u had prob with ur gf.. and from tat I oni knew tat u ard have gf few weeks ago..... I never tot I can be tat calm, summore have to act natural and comfort u at the same time.... act my heart is crying that time.. 'who's going to comfort me?' no one..... but just myself... I cant blame u for tat coz u dunno.....I was just thinking 'here goes another bad outcome for me... not first time but everytime........ '

Hope u're doing well now... as in studies and with gf as well.... I'm holding myself not to contact u at this moment coz i'm not ready yet.... I still dunno how to face u... so plz do forgive me if i'm acting cool... i scare i'll cross the normal fren line as in care too much coz u have gf, so its diff now.... I know u're a loyal person, once u got into a relationship, u're serious abt it and hoping to marry with her one day... and i hope tat u will.... No worries, I'm moving on and thanks for the memories.... having u as my fren is my pleasure... Guess my chapter abt u has to stop now and I'm going to start a new chapter sooner or later...

BYE!!!!

Special dedicated to my family

2008-04-12T03:19:00.006+08:00

Although ard been here for 2 month but sumtimes when alone in room, i do miss my family.... tats the first time i'm talking skype with mum and dad.... they're so cute!!! cant u see my mum's happy face there? how cute is that? and my dad too.... still having his beer as usual.... love u!!! dun worry, i'll always take good care of myself and study hard (like wat u been said to me over the phone everytime)... i'm so sorry for things tat i've did or said back in malaysia last time which may hurt ur feeling coz i'm hot tempered sumtimes.... when i'm here, i oni realised that how much i love u all and so regret of wat i've did last time.....plz forgive me...and i cant wait to go back and u all a big hug!!! dad, i understand why u din wan to show up at the airport coz u said u 'll be sad when seeing my going into the terminal.... but do take care and drink less beer ar....

that the oni pic of my big bro i got so far, coz he seldom take pic. the next time when i come back, its ur big day, ur wedding... so be prepared and have fun... i'm expecting to have niece and nephew and glad to see tat u have ur own family and cant imagine to have kid's laughter appeared in our house... hahhaha.. congrats!! and Nicole, welcome to yap's family... =)

hey sis, knowing u been working so hard but dun stress-out ar, take care urself and dun always work overtime coz its kinda dangerous going back alone at nite..... if u wan to have somebody to talk to, just call me and i'll always be there for u no matter wat happened.... i know u always have clear vision of wat u doing now and wat next... u're always strong in front of me coz u're my big sis.... thanks for ur caring and teaching my wat's right and wrong...... u're my guidance.. love u!!

Hey yoong.... felt nice sleeping alone without me? haha... know u have SPM this year, and i believe u can do it very well, just dun give so much pressure on urself.... dun always just stay in front of the computer oni ar.. help me take care dad and mum oso ar, bro is busying with his wedding stuff and jie oso busy abt her work.... so u know wat to do la k? Btw, i ard told u tat i had a surprise for u and u'll know it on July.. hope this will as a encouragement for u to do better in anything.. love u!!

next up, let me introduce the new member in Yap's family, Yap ding dong... for those who know me knew tat i'm not a big fan of pets or animal... coz i'm scare of them... and here goes a cat in my house... its actually my sis's pet, its girl and she basically living in the house now and surprisingly, mum and dad like her so much.. still rememebred tat time when i'm talking skype with them, mummy showed ding dong to me in front of the webcam and i can feel that she's really happy to have her in d family.... wait for me to come back... =)

Adelaide post 1

2008-04-12T02:54:00.005+08:00

Hey guys!! i'm really sorry for such late post since i'm here in Adelaide.. omg.. its almost been 2 months since my last post and staying here in Adelaide, can say ard used to the life here but nevertheless, i miss home so much!!! miss my family, my frens....

now thinking back to 2 months ago, many things happened and i'm so lazy to recall it back... why dun just talk abt things which happened recently... krystal's and sk's birthday just passed and we did celebrated and mien and I did managed to give both of them surprise!!! u know wat, its really hard to lie if u were staying under the same roof with somebody else whom u plan to give surprise!!!! but we managed to!! haha.... and thx for krystal and sk for spending me and mien the buffet dinner @ Hyatt hotel... its awesome.. i ate lots of oyster and its so fresh, b4 that i dun even think to eat that.
Happy Birthday!! =)

now having my 2 weeks sem break and we're going to melbourne for 5 days!! yeah!!! my motto always is 'PLAY HARD WORK HARD'.. coz when u working so hard, getting so frustrated on things not going too well, u'll think of u can play hard afterward and tats my motivation. been working my ass off for the assignment for the past few weeks and my eyebags were like.. shit man... even when i talking skype with my mum and dad, they all did saw it even the quality of the web cam not tat good.... mum dad!! i miss u all so much!!! and i do always love u all!!!!!!!!! muakss....

today went to harbour town shopping centre when u can buy cheaper stuff compared to city as all is directly from the brand outlet... cant u believe? i've bought 3 dresses with 31 AUD? its so cheap la.. so come to Adelaide and shop k? mei wen, we are waiting for u!! haha.. talking abt shopping, i'm not just buy for myself k? i do buy stuff for my family too.. so watch out...

CNY's coming up

2008-02-06T02:01:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is coming up yet i'm not so excited about it...

dunno why... as CNY approach closer, it also means that i'm getting closer leaving to Adelaide soon....

still haven't finish packing my luggage,

everything seems not fully being prepared yet...

sigh...feel sad coz have to left my family and frens behind

but one year will be pass very fast,

that's no need to worry about...

Although there's so much to bu she de but yet i

still think that i've made a right decision to go oversea.

Got a bad hair cut recently, it makes look very ugly, my face already very chubby

and this make my face even look more chubby....

sigh, there's nothing i can do about it but just hope it will grow very fast.... =(

Been browsing through kennysia blog and wanna try his detox plan,

he has lost almost5kg in 4 or 5 days if i'm not mistaken,

i think i will buy the detox tea and bring it to

adelaide coz i dun think i can do that during CNY la, i

t does sound ridiculous, doesn't it?

haha... =)

Talking about CNY, one of the normal activities which we'll doing is watching

movies while this year,

there are 2 movies which will be out during CNY,

CJ7 and kung fu dunk.... big bro ard book tickets to watch CJ7 on 7th,

hope stephen chow will not let me down....

the little girl in the film is very cute but

she act as stephen's son in the film, kinda funny....

Besides, i'm also looking forward jay's movie also,

basketball and jay is two ofmy favourites.. haha

(p.s) i know friendship is one of the most important element is our life but i'm really tired to maintain it coz our distance seem get further and i dunno wat i can do.

its obvious that we have different direction and opinion in things...

Things wont be like last time, maybe tats the way it is once we grow older

I think i need to find ways to get used to it...

Tomorrow will be better! =)

Seremban trip

2008-02-06T01:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to seremban with my jimuis, mien, krystal, loris and sk... i'm the driver, drove all the way down to seremban, it took probably about an hour to reach....

Overall its been an enjoyable trip.... we had a lot of fun during the journey. thanks to jen jin for the accompany coz bringing us to some nice places in seremban to eat... On top of that, we did knew some new frens too, james and jonathan, nice knowing u all coz u all are so kind...

We also went to Port Dickson as well, it was my first time been there... it took about half an hour to reach from seremban.. errm, its not as happening as i expected, the beach was just ok

but anyway we took lots of pics throughout the trip will be uploaded soon once

i got all the pics from Loris...

Stuck

2008-01-27T17:10:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps... its been a while since last update... getting lazier and lazier all this while coz in holiday mode ma... yea, i'm going to adelaide in 2 weeks time!! yeah!! at least for now i'm so excited about this depite the fact that i'm leaving my family here.. tats really sad and 'bu she de' coz i never left away from home that long and far.... i'll miss them very much!! =(

Stuck? yea, now everything seems stuch in d middle.... was packing my luggage but stuck in d middle coz haven't put all d clothes inside as i might be wearing some of them during chinese new year and if i din put all d clothes inside my luggage rite, i would not be able to put other things like shoes, bags all tat stuff coz clothes are soft material, therefore i put them at bottom part as they can be pressed easily. wise move huh? but now was stuck in d middle.. dunno how la.. headache... was planning to bring 5 bags and more pairs of shoes over but it seems difficult la coz not enough space... haiz...

case 2# just did my eyebrow embriodery few days ago... ta ma de.. the level of pain was not what i've expected. at first while krystal and I were discussing with the beauty consultant, she said tat the process is being done by using needle and tat cost RM20. when i heard abt this , i was like 'ok, tats needle and i dun think it'll hurt tat bad' then we booked for appointment and did our embriodery... when i saw the beauty consultant used a small blade instead of needle, i was like 'ma de, dun tell me this is needle ar..' but then it was too late to regret coz i'm already pay for that. here goes my think and ugly eyebrows...it needs to take at least a week to let the colour getting fade and today's is the 3rd day so i'm stuck in d middle, dun dare to go out, if really have to meet my friends, have to put on smokey eyeshadow to match with the eyebrows.. deng.. if it still look ugly before 1st of Feb, i'll consider to wear cap.. hope it will turns well la... (cross fingers)

case 3# have u been in dilemma? kinda in a stuck situation... when we grow older, i find that ppl tend to have all kinds of faces. is tat called fake? most of us will say yes but then from those fakers' point of view, they think they just show the various side of themsleves.... they behave tat way just bcoz they dun wan to offend others... sumtimes i'm confused, i think i oso got different faces too... i dun dare to confront those fakers if i think they'r fake.... all i did was just trying to act and talk normal with them? so do i act fake too? i dunno.. kinda stuck now... 'To confront or not to confront, Tat's the question'
coz sumtimes i'm just so pissed at these ppl, why they can just behave like tat, live in their own world, act like nobody's else business... sumtimes they did oso take advantage over others, u tot i'm stupid is it? i just dun wan the situation gets akward, tats why i din say it out. if not....ma de.. i cant guarantee wat will happen.. lolz... sumtimes ask myself not to get pissed on this issue easily.. but u know it's hard to control my temper...

Don't Know Why

2008-01-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

now ard year 2008 but still haven't get used to it... dun know why? supposingly everyone should have their new year resolution and trying to achieve tat throughout the year rite? i dun think i'm on the rite track.. dun know why? although ard decided going to adelaide complete my studies and the preparation also being done 70%, so meaning i should be on the rite track to pursue my goal throughout 2008 rite?
My goals are:

complete my final year without fail any subjects
get along with my housemates very well( i'm not worrying but that was just one of my wish k? haha, if there's really a conflict happened between us, my suggestion was just shut our bedroom door and cool down ourselves)

Additionally, things which i'm looking forward throughout the year would be

spending my 21st birthday in adelaide (thats kinda special for me coz i have been spending my birthday in malaysia typically for the previous 20 years)Last but not least, hopefully YOU can light up my day tat time, kinda looking forward but telling myself not to expect too much
look more gorgeous coz this was my 21st year, it should be most beautiful year, isn't it? hope tat i can live it into fullest with no regrets. have fun!
pray hard for my jimuis especially the singles, hope tat they can find their significant other. i always wonder why my all gorgeous jimuis are still being single like me? omg, guys nowadays really blind, why have to make my girls keeping waiting? this my little advice for my girls:

Krystal, dun be too hurry to know the outcome, do enjoy urself throughout the process. relax a little bit, present the true side of u everytime, dun be shy? when comes to shyness, i should be the one whome be more shy than u gua? u got many good qualities within u, guys just haven't see tat oni. Gambate ya!

Mei Wen, i do know tat u might think tat why u always found the wrong guy? maybe thats the challenge given by god to u, with tat experiences, trust me, u're on the right path in finding ur Mr. right! u got such beautiful eyes to differentiate good or bad guy, maybe now still not the time yet. just remember always prepare urself for watever situation. just give me a msg while i'm in adelaide (if u dun mind) when u need somebody to talk to. i oso really 'bu she de' left u oni in here, not to worry tat u'll be bully by the rest (haha, coz i know u'll protect urself), but scare u'll be alone....... no matter wat, we all will still be there for u if u need regardless the distance...

Loris, u're much more tougher and stronger than u thought u were, do always believe in urself. my advice to u is try to show the softer side of u more, i think guys would like tat.. haha.. waiting for ur good news k?

For both whom ard found their significant others, hope tat both ur relationships would be last forever. i oso cant give comment on this much coz most importantly is for u to work tat out.

Happy 2008!!!! Cheers..... =)

BoA

2007-12-26T18:01:00.000+08:00

if u heard of her b4, she's a singer from korea... actually i did knew her from last time... but last nite accidentally saw her on tv and omg, she's amazing..... i mean her voive, dance, totally got a whole package of being a superstar..... u know wat, she's same age as me...... such a shame for me..

so i've checked her out in youtube.... found tat she's also actively involved in japan market... and she even speaks japanese well... on top of that, she oso know how to speak english despite she's originally from Korea..... omg, she really deserve this post from my blog... guys plz check her out... really....she's not oni can sing well while dancing.... her live performance... awesome too...... omg.... i really put salute on her man....... Salute!!!

go check out those link.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZ9wJ1ocK1A

must check this out... her live performance
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IW4SDdD5ZNE&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDQW0O1iDag&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VENCYH1X97o&feature=related

Give me a break.......

2007-12-22T01:04:00.000+08:00

omg... dunno wat happened to me.... suddenly felt cant breathe.... get me out of here!!!! how i wish i'm drunk now..... its now because i'm alchoholic k? its simply bcoz when i'm drunk, there's no enemies in my world and everything seems nice and good to me.... i oso can talk watever i like out loud without care abt others' feeling..... at least i need not to control myself up to certain level...... sorry have been quite emotional in this while..... i oso wanna get rid of this... any suggestion?

i need to get my strength back..... and i'll figure how...

How nice.... IF
If i'm happy, i'll laugh
If i'm sad, i'll cry
If i'm moody, i'll scream
If i'm hungry, i'll eat

how nice if its tat simple, in reality there's not oni black and white.....we dun have a choice and we cant change the fact!! if u can cope with it, tat's fine! u're good... if u cant, i'm sorry, u have to... its either take it or leave it.....

'the earth would never ever stop to move because of the change in u' meaning tat dun wait the thing be the way u expecting it to be... on the other hand, u have to accept the way the thing is....
although it seems easy to know but i still cant accept the face..... maybe all i need is time.. but obviously not now....

merry christmas! although it sound early.....

Saving all my love for u

2007-12-02T01:47:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.. just came back from pahang trip... erm.. yea, quite an enjoyable trip but there are things happened throughout the trip though... anyway, i'm glad to spent more time with frens b4 leaving to australia... and i'm looking forward and very excited abt the upcoming singapore trip which is on 6th to 9th with all my jimuis.... first time can gather all my jimuis together.... we must have fun ya!!

i admit tat throughout the trip i did think of u sumtimes..... (i know tat my girl's enquiry during the trip, u should know who u are la.) haha... always think that how nice if u're with me when watching the fireflies, playing games....... hoping tat u can see the true real side of me... more funny and cheerful me... letting u notice tat actually i got sumthing tat could fulfill ur requirement being simple, nice and sweet....

at this point, no sure whether we got chemistry or not... everything seems blur to me.... i'm not sure whether is it real blur or just i'm the one whom dun wan accept the truth...... sumtimes did felt pressure when the girls feel happy for me when there are things happened between us... i scare will let them down... i really think he just treat me as fren.... nothing more than this at this point... sumtimes really feel in dilemma... at one point scare to move forward, coz worry will scare him out if being too agreesive.... but at one point telling myself tat to grab any chance tat have coz 'there are things if u dun do it, u will not do it forever'. i dun wan to be regret when i look back few years later...... no matter wats the consequences in the end, it will be part of my memory and i'm glad to know u during the journey of my life.......

ya, the process got high and low, ups and downs... this is wat i have to deal with it... no other way....sumtimes i ask myself is it worthy or not? why do so much of silly things while he wont see it? tats simply coz i'm saving all my love for u......

for any girls out there...... dun be shy to say it out loud tat u love him.... u have to grab ur own happiness instead of waiting for it to come.... i can tell u tat i wont come coz i have been waiting for it to come for the past 19 years yet still no answer.... for the 20th year of my life... i have to change and be the brave me!!!! cheers! =)

What does ur birth date means?

2007-11-27T10:23:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: June 26

You lucked out the the skills to succeed in almost any arena.
Put you in almost any business or classroom, and you'll rise to the top.
You're driven and intense, but you also know when to kick back and cooperate.
Your ability to adapt to almost any situation is part of what's going to make you a success.

Your strength: Your attention to detail

Your weakness: You can be a little too proud of your successes

Your power color: Turquoise

Your power symbol: Arrow pointing up

Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

haha, ya, think wat it said, got some part of it is correct though... wat do u think? =)

Big Day

2007-11-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the big day for my big bro..... coz he and his gf, Nicole were registered lawfully to be husband and wife at 'tian hou gong'... meaning his gf was offcially become part of my family now...... congrats!!! they will be getting married next year..... hopefully is mid year so that i can come back and attend their wedding party...... and sooner or later i'll have niece or nephew... haha..... then our house will be filled up lots of crying sound and laughter of the baby... haha....

taking pic with little bro while waiting outside
three of us..... did my sister looked younger than me? many ppl said tat....

tats the couple's ring......
hope both u will be live happily ever after.... haha

M.I.A

2007-11-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

hey peeps... sorry for miss in action almost a month.... time flies.. really.... yea, exam is over and now officially in holiday..... yea, i should be appreciate during tis time rite? hahaha, but hmm... not so enjoyful and happy tis time.... dunno why, when u grow older, there are tonnes of things which u need to care abt.... u cant just simply get rid of it.... a kid can be very happy when his mummy gave him a sweet..... but this kind of happiness cant satisfy me now...... how i wish i could be forever a kid? although it sound impossible......

tats the place where i had been studying for almost a month... the same old place..... when i looked at this pic rite now, i sitll imagine how stress i am during that time.... omg it's so scary.... however, i have another year to suffer...... =(

alrite, lets have a random update...... dun think i'll post the prom pic and genting anymore coz it was like long time ago..... and erm, yea, benjy and loris were back in kl ard.... sorry for not hanging out with u all during exam..... but luckily i was managed to attend loris's birthday surprise party!!!! happy birthday girl...... really glad to see u back in kl..... anyway, be strong girl!! love u always!! =)

tats the cake for Loris, isn't it nice?

all at the front living all waiting for her to come back....... and here comes loris!
all were singing birthday song for her......
all the girls taking pic with loris.... all the balloon were prepared by loris's mum..... so nice!

another girl pic
here comes the boys...... bernard is looking cute there......
loris was opening the present.... its a watch actually....

once again happy birthday girl! this entry was specially dedicated to u.. and hope u'll like it!!!

Sigh

2007-10-27T21:01:00.001+08:00

Wanted to update the prom photos and genting pics one.. but then the connection really bad, cant upload photo la... sigh....

wat coming up next? Exam exam and exam la... of course.... really no mood doing revision now... i mean still not in exam mode.... feel that things around me are changing... my life beside college life been really dull recently.. dunno why.. last time i used to watch movie at least once in a week... surely will went to One u weekly one.. but now.. i dun even remember when was the last time i been to One U... i remembered the last movie i watched is chuck and larry but it seems long time ago.... omg.. wat been happening to me? the prob is i'm not tat busy leh.. summore if i feel free rite, i would rather stay at home, lying on the sofa, keep switching channel to channel instead of calling my gang of frens out for a movie or yam cha etc...... there's no drive to make me do tat ard...

everybody seems busy with their own stuff... they have their world, and their own dreams to persue... but while busying with ur stuff, shoud have to care abt ur frens gua? the bond of buddyship or friendship is forever de leh....... sumtimes have to put on some seasoning and spice it up de ma... do remember tat watever happen, ur true frens will always back u up.. there's no doubt abt tat..... the most silly thing is misunderstood ur true fren simply because of some 'fresh' thing which u been obsess recently. ask urself, worth it ma?

wondering why out of sudden i'm talking abt this? yeah, had a conflict with one of my fren.....this fren wont read this and i oso hope this fren wont read abt this.. coz i just wanna express my feelings oni.. not intend to get sympathy from anyone else... maybe some ppl wanna pretend to be the small little sheep, it up to them.. i dun care... u know wat, when things happen rite, there used to be 2 types of characters one, one is the little weak sheep, one is big fierce lion... its been always like tat one... and unfortunately, i'll always be the fierce one althouhgh i'm not wo... haiz. feel lazy to explain ard... if u think i'm then let it be la..... coz i truly believe that the truth will be revealed one day.. the true side of these characters will come out one fine day.....

to this fren, i would not thought tat u'll talk something behind me.... if u're not satisfy anything on me, can come up to me face to face? i'm ok with tat de...... i really hate ppl talking behind me, wan talk, talk in front me la.... no point talking behind rite? wtf.... dun make any assumption b4 knowing the thing clear.... did u asked me anything abt the issue? if no, how come u know how i think? i'm really hate getting misunderstood by ppl de la..... despite the thing happening now, i do appreciate wat u did for my b'day, i said i would remember tat forever and i'm really do.....

heard of this chinese idioms? 'true gold wont be scare to be burn in fire' sorry abt my translation, hope u all will un....... horoscope say i aint got luck this week, guess it true huh?

one more thing, today is the last day of having hip hop class with eddie (one of the urban grove instructor), check him out ya! he's really hot and really good in dancing..... the reason why it the last day because his boss told him wanted to stop our class coz not enough ppl.... sigh... actually thinking wanna go to urban grove and learn one.. but i'm going studying abroad soon so have to wait for a year lo..... i'll be back one.. for sure, wait for me ya!! but dun think i'm good in dancing ar, i'm just being passionate abt it, i love music and tats it.... love to dance with my girls in the middle of the dance floor, just being too obsess with the music tat i like haha.. really obsess ( can ask my girls abt it)..... and dancing is good for health.. so dance more!! haha =)

Asshole.....

2007-10-25T20:12:00.000+08:00

For those students who study in Taylors... plz take note of this plat number.... this car is drove by an asshole... i guess he's from UTS maybe coz he was wearing kinda presentation attire this morning...

why would i called a creature asshole all of a sudden? must be a reason, isn't it? the story begins like this.... sau kuan and i had DSM lecture at 10 this morning... and as u know, its kinda hard to find parking out there during this hour... and b4 u turn into the subang square junction rite, normally there'll be a car parking there selling 'yao zha gui' one.. and they usually sell until 10 o'clock and ciao one... since sk is driving so we decided to wait for them at the corner there.....

as soon as the car drove out, sk parked her car inside the box, we heard got ppl 'hon' us at the other side, its a frontier, Nissan i think.... we confused... we waited for so long and u bastard 'hon' us for wat? u son of a bitch! guess he also think he had waited for so long at the other side.. both of us din know both existence coz just now were being blocked by the 'yao zha gui' car....

and now the situation is like this, our car is ard in the box and this bastard kinda like waiting for us to drive out and let him park in... obviously he thinks we are the one whom is fault.... of course we din quickly drive out la, wtf oh... u tot girls can bully ar... ma de... then we kinda struggle there for few minutes... sk and i thought this son of a bitch will let us de leh.... na! wtf, he came up to us and i roll down the window,

'wei, i waited for this car park so long ard, cant u see me?'

'hey, i also waited behind there de leh'

'u can asked him' (there is another stall beside selling malay food)

'pak cik, saya pun tunggu kat sini lama tau, u tak nampak ke?'

obviously this pak cik oso dun wan angkat 'tiu' so he said
'tak apa la, saya sudah pun nak pergi, 10 minit saja'

i tot he'll be tat gentleman and said nvm la, i'll wait for the malay man to go coz it was just right beside our car oni... the answer is NO!!! hell no... he just kept looking at us... ta ma de...

and finally i said 'tak apa lah... saya tunggu............!!!!'

story ends....

omg... been studied in taylors almost 3 years.. din have situation like this de leh..... moreover, this is a guy.. omg.... shame on u man..... u dun deserved to be a man!! summore when he ard parked his car rite, he still buy food from the stall slowly leh... intend to wan to delay and wan us keep waiting leh... ta ma de..... my fire really burst out... so decided to take pic in front of him.... nya seng...
i really dunno where this pok kai come from de loh..... u feel very proud is it? in fact, u been showed the uglies side of u.... fighting a car park with girl? omg..... eat shit la u....
sk and i had came up with an conclusion..... dun ever let ur child to be english educated, coz we guess this son of a bitch is a banana... and i think his banana also ain't that good... coz the banana mostly would behave like this.. like nobody business, being too pampered... they thought they are the king or queen or something... bull shit la... show no respect....

those taylors students who read this, spread this and let others know abt this.. see what he still can be proud of... u son of a bitch...!!!!!!

while the creature parking his car.... f*** u.... tats the stall that i mentioned just now
summore is P license de wo.. of course dunno how to parking la.. wan jie jie teach u or not...

here the son of a bitch came out of his car......... na, ma de...
adidas bag oni is it? not gucci, lacoste is it? chew
look him clearly.. this is the clearest pic that i had..... recognise this bastard!
still wan to waste our time wo.... purposely one, i know.... wan keep us waiting ma.... fucker
eat wat eat... there din sell shit la... u should eat shit and u deserved to eat shit!
remember this plat number.. nissan frontier.... ga na sai.... and remember is not we been defeated by u... we just being so generous and dun wan fight with some chi bai di di in the middle of the road, we are sophisticated lady.... we let u... na.. happy?

There's no tomorrow.. Do it now!

2007-10-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

we will tend to be procrastinate in progressing things..... most obvious example is assignment.... sigh..... i hate account so much, just dunno why i chose account as one of my major.... its really a mistake....

found out this statement in the magazine recently.... ' i'm fat but u're ugly, i can diet but u cant!'
its meaningful, isn't it? i kept knocking my head when i read this coz this is so true.....
ya, i admit i'm not thin (still dun wan say fat to myself, lolz), but so wat? i can diet wo but u cant wo (this is oni for those ugly fellas who tease the fatty...... one day i'll prove tat u're perception is so wrong, u just have to wait and see..... although now i'm oni half way proving myself and keeping procrastinating, meaning din have appropriate proportion when eating, sumtimes din eat but there are times eat so much, and thats the prob..... this is a wrong example....

hopefully 'u' have the power to make me go further , i wanna looked compatible with u and i know there's a price tat i need to pay for, for u i will...... and lastly to increase my confidence level and telling myself tat i can do it de!!!

For my jimuis who read this blog, be my witness and guardian in wat i've said just now, keep reminding me whenever i eat in order to help me achieve my goal b4 i'm leaving..... coz girls, u all sure know wats my goal rite? this time really no joke, clock is ticking...... haha...... GAMBATE!!!

Dreaming of YOU

2007-10-11T17:31:00.000+08:00

its been a while since last update.... just wondering when can i get over with all the assignments.. its annoying...

will soon update for prom... still collecting photos... overall, the prom was not too bad but as good as what i've expected... will talk more abt this next update... the clubbing session was good.. i mean as in hanging around with frens... some whom i din met for quite a while.. nice having them around... guess wat.. i think approximately there was almost 30++ ppl during clubbing session... cut off all these crap.. most importantly is to have 'him' around too.... actually before that i looking forward for this nite when he did confirm to me tat he is joining.... what tat nite has come.. well, not tat disappointing but not as good as wat i've expected..... but i'm really appreciate tat...

earlier on when i start to have this blog, i said to myself tat i can express watever i want to say without concerning other factors.... coz i always care for others' opinion on me... now, i dun think i'm doing this well.. coz i still will think twice b4 i post the blog.. dunno why.... really dunno still wan to hide wat shit... sigh

been dreaming abt u in this 2 days.... because of what i've heard abt u.. i'll start to think what if u have feeling towards somebody else? then, i dreamt tat nite... dreaming u with somebody else.... tats really not good.. but what can i do.... nothing!

been always asking myself... do u know? do u know tat i care? do u know tat i wanna have lots of shared moment and experience with u b4 i'm leaving to adelaide? u wont know..... bcoz u dunno tat i'm actually have crush on u..... someone may ask.. 'why dun wan let him know?' i will answered 'how to let him know?' i dunno la... really confused rite now.... clock is ticking and i'm going to adelaide soon.... scare myself will regret by not doing it b4 i leave.... but could i handle the consequences? i still dunno yet.....

(p/s : everytime when i see ur pic in my phone... automatically i will smile... tats ur power!) =)

Secret......

2007-09-18T16:36:00.000+08:00

For those who did watched this movie... mostly will say it was nice.. this same goes to me... i had watched this probably a month ago.. and i watched it for the second time yesterday..... of course not as touched as the first time but still i did cried for the last part.... because the touching moment in the movie hit deep down in my heart..... i dun like to see 2 individuals who like each other but cant be together.. so when in the end jay could manage to go back in the past and first person whom he saw is xiao yu... that scene make me cry out loud...

it simply because to find another individual who like u and at the same time u like him/her too is very hard.... i dunno la.. for me is hard.... so those who did met that particular individual.. plz plz plz.... do appreciate and cherish it.... and may u and ur significant other live happily ever since....

Secret.. it can be defined as things which u keep within urself and not telling anyone else.... but is it the case? i dun think so.... hehe.. coz normally the so called 'secret' will spread out one... 'na, u cant tell anyone else after i told u this secret ar.....' does this sound familiar? and then the same thing will goes to the second person telling the third person.....it would never come to an end....hehe.... will it still call secret once u told another person? In the movie itself, when xiao yu told the secret (which she can go to the future) to his teacher and telling him no to tell anyone.... but the teacher did.... whats next? everyone including her mum thought she was crazy..... so, its really depends whether u wanna share ur secret with others or not....... at least u have to bear the consequences lo.......

In my wonderland, i'll share my happiness and others as well.... here is my little secret recently... dun get too excited first.... nothing much.. just wanna release some feeling within me oni......

i'm lost.... i thought i'm sober in handling this kind of problem.. in fact i'm not.... i really dunno wat to do next....
Before, i tot there are some sort of chemistry between us
Now, its not there anymore

Before, i tot i'm playing an important role in ur heart as close fren
Now, i think its not the case

Before, i tot we have more chance to get to know each other
Now, our distance is near yet further and further

Before, i tot we're on the same pace and we're clicked in some aspects
Now, maybe i'm thinking too much last time

Before, i'll get excited whenever the window pops out stating u're online & get anxious to say hi
Now, i ard get used to not chat with u if u dun say hi to me

Before, i tot the whole process will not come to an end so soon
Now, i think its coming to an end

Maybe its really come to an end... i just dun wan accept the truth..... i tell myself not to be so pessimistic but now i have no strength to believe in myself ard...... too much negative charge in my body rite now....

Anyway, this relationship 'thing' does not covers the majority in my life.... i used to think like tat last time.... but for NOW... not anymore.... its such a silly thought huh? it won't influence my daily life.... i'll still have fun with my gang of frens.... going out, watching movies, gossip...... (wei girls, long time din gossiping ard wo).... hehe.... dun worry abt me k..... i'm stronger than i thought..... i know one day i'll get over with all those things one...... not a big deal..... i'm still a cheerful, joyful pooi kwan after all..... yeah!! =)

The Year of Jacky Cheung (14 September 2007)

2007-09-18T15:18:00.000+08:00

Jacky Cheung, My all time favorite singer... he's really good man.... based on his performance that nite, i dun think he's 46 years old lo.... coz still can dance and sing at the same time. His voice is awesome although he felt sick... he sing better than anyone else... seriously... i'm not bias! For those who didn't been to his concern that day... i tell u, its a loss for u! really......

As u can see there is 3 tickets.... i went with my bro and his gf

Actually wanted to buy the RM398 ticket.. but not tat rich la... so just bought the RM318 one... thanks to my bro coz he sponsored me to watch one.... =)

thats the view of the stage.. basically there are 5 big screens being placed at different place throughout the stadium so tat everyone can see cleary... from wat i read from the newspaper, there are 30,000 ppl in the stadium tat nite.... its true, there are many ppl that day.... when i turned back and see the crowd, the RM88 crowd were like sitting on the sky lo... coz they were at level 3... so scary....

we're not allowed to bring camera inside but yet there are ppl who brought... this is the clearest pic that i took with my camera phone....

Basically the concert's concept is to sing the old songs and the popular one.... actually i know Jacky through my bro and sis last time when i was in primary... my bro always sing his song and my sis was so fancy abt Jacky that time... she even bough Jacky's file clip, posters and all that stuff.... then i get influenced lo.... u know wat, when u keeping listen to those songs rite, u'll automatically sing it without memorise the lyrics de wo.. thats how i listen to Jacky's song... therefore, until now i dun really know the name of the song but i can sing it..... and after went to his concert, u'll love him and his song even more..... his voice got this kind of power, can punch deep in ur heart.... so, there is one point when the music start especially for those old songs, my tears will start drop, its overwhelming.... i still wonder why.... tell u wat, by listening his live is far better than listen on CD.. its true one......

Cam-whore while waiting

The concert starts at 8.45 pm.. only 15 mins late.... this showed tat he's a very professional singer and he wont let his fans to wait so long one... unlike the other singer.. u have to wait at least half an hour one......

The concert consists of various part... its kinda like Jacky's musical journey... he's introducing his song with several category.. like funky part, sexy part, soft part, shy part........ there is one part where he dedicated some particular song to his 2 daughters, wife, his beloved frends, leslie and anita mui..... tat part was so touching..... for me is the song which he wrote for his wife one... i cried too.....

Besides, there was a musical performance too..... a short one... its from the movie of perhaps love... i realy like the song called 'ai shi yong heng'... he did sang it but too bad its in chinese version.... haiz.... here is what i have recorded.. 'perhaps love'

this song i dedicate to all my frens who need more courage in their relationship.... listen to this song.. the lyrics is so meaningful....

here's another song that i like very much... its called 'love u more each day'.....

In conclusion, the concert was really good (thumb up)......
dunno when will be the his next concert in Malaysia... and i'm 100% sure going...

Pizza's birthday (12 Sept 2007)

2007-09-18T13:31:00.001+08:00

Been invited to pizza's birthday surprise dinner at Bumbu Bali, Puchong.... although having DSM test tmr but still going... the surprise that we plan was a success... it did make pizza cry and the amazing part is krystal, who is part of the surprise making committee also crying like nobody's business.... haha.... i guess thats the miracle part of the surprise... hehe... no la.. just kidding.. actually it was really touched.... in fact i'm felt touched too... by seeing eveyone is putting their effort in making pizza's birthday present.. i was overwhelmed... i cant believe guys like them especially wai kit could make a T-shirt and draw ultraman on it.. its was really nice man...salute!

of course not forgetting on the singing part... jeffery brought his guitar and we sang birthday song for pizza... then we just request watever song that we want to hear and jeffery could manage to play the song and sing de lo.... really geng... and he sing so well too.... next time should duet with him when sing k... hehe....

Group pic 1
(everyone is wearing white,
u guys din told us to wear
oso) =(

thats pizza & jeffery( the singer
of the nite) hehe
Happy Birthday girl!

mien and her favorite watermelon
she is eating fish & chips

thats me! =)
i'm eating grilled vege pasta..
Krystal
she's eating so sort of fried chic rice
its Bumbu Bali special i think
Sau kuan and her favorite salmon steak!
me & sophia
(nice knowing u and u're the first one who i peel chicken for u leh.. hehe dun worry i knew u did appreciate it.... u should eat more ar.... haha)
me & mei
( i tot i'm the coolest human in the world but when i met her.. i should give this title to her.. ah mei.. u deserve this! hehe)
me & jeffery
(u sing so well leh and play guitar so good too..... keep it up ya! dun think of sad things and do remember tat u can bring so much joy to others by singing and playing guitar! )
Krystal, wai kit & kok hong (the guys are trying to act cute over there.. hehe)

the trios and krystal... (post this purposely coz krystal keep on complaining she looks so fat in the previous pic, then wai kit and kok hong decided to make their face fatter so tat krystal look slimmer in the pic and it works!! hehe)
here another pic for u krystal... i remembered after i took this pic, i told her tat 'wei krystal, u looked so slim in this pic leh', then i showed her and her reaction was like 'oh man, very slim leh'
very funny though!
me, mien, mei and sophia
here come sau kuan & jeffery
thats the kitten & ratty
( u both look alike in this pic la...)

Last but not least... here the video clip tat i recorded while we singing birthday song for pizza... the funny part in this part is pizza's reaction when the guys kiss her cheek one by one... u all should take a look on this ya!!
p.s (its kinda blur coz i record this with my phone not video camera)

Merdeka eve party

2007-09-18T12:26:00.000+08:00

its been ages since last blog... so sorry coz too busy.. now having a week off so got time to update.. not feeling so well.. headache + sore throat... =(
alrite.. cut off the craps... i'm not going to talk much abt the merdeka eve party @ steven's house.. coz most of all u can see in sk's blog coz all the pics she had posted were from my phone.. so wat for post twice rite? hehe....

the BBQ nite was fun... eveyone is contributed.. from buying things at carrefour until cleaning up.. the funny part while in the supermarket was the guys dun really bother abt the price de lo... they just take and put it into the trolley.. and thats it! i was like their mum telling them this one can buy how many.. tat one is not necessary ask them put it back.... always mention cut cost... hope them will appreciate it la.. hehe....

so sorry.. my 'cha yip' egg was not an success... thanks for those who ate it.. coz its taste not really nice la.. Steven's pent house is nice.. the view is awesome.... looking forward to have another party there ya.... =)

the BBQ starts at nite (of course), the chicken wings is really delicious! with the secret recipe by winson.... we managed to see the fireworks from putrajaya (there was a fireworks competition going on there for a week if i'm not wrong) meaning different country will put on their fireworks each day... and that day is from Japan... unfortunately, it isn't tat nice from our view coz its very small... anyway, japan fireworks rocks man!! =)

forgiveness

2007-09-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

Last minute i'm really angry at u but bcoz of u, i'm melted with watever reason u said to me
Last minute i told myself not to have any contact with u but bcoz of u, i cant
Last minute i told myself to be natural in front of u but bcoz of u, i cant
Last minute i'm really disappointed with ur reaction to me but bcoz of u, i cant hold tat disappointment too long

All simply bcoz of u.... i forgive u but can i forget? that the question..........

updates 2

2007-08-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

went to red box sunway last thursday coz got holiday promotion (just RM6!!).. but only sing for 2 hours.... the room that they had arranged for us is very small lo.... student not human meh.. we oso pay for it de ma.... redbox no good la.... boo........

mien looked very shy in this pic..(actually she's not) she's wild

krystal_Saukuan_Joy

then, went to the curve last saturday with the other 3 poks... had dinner at 'the apartment'.. erm.. the atmosphere was ok, din have much food choice but the food that we ordered was nice... before we headed to 'the apartment'.... there was an event held by the body shop, 'women's aid organisation , walk of love event.... Dina (the 1st runner-up of the malaysian idol first season) was singing on the stage... she was singing my favourite song when she was in the competition that time.... 'when u believe' by mariah carey.... its awesome, she rocks man...... then followed by the second song 'umbrella' by rihanna..... i saw some other celebrities there too... amber chia was there (but i'm not a very big fan)...
here comes Dina.... (you rock man)

then we went to baskin robins to have some ice-cream.......

guess who's this?

~The End~

Random updates

2007-08-29T20:13:00.002+08:00

oh my god.. its been decades since the last post... so sorry coz i'm overload with assignments, just handed in my FA3 assignment today, have to praise myself this time coz been starting to do from 8.30pm last nite till today 7.30am, it was because our lecturer told us what's the marker concern and the format on the last minute.. many ppl done wrong so kinda have to redo again lo..one day i think i'm gonna get drown by it.....=( [i agreed with Krystal.. wondering that who's the fella who come up with this assessment....] gonna kill him/her.... make our life so difficult....

thank god that i'm ard get over it and the next event coming up is MERDAKA!! haha.. have to show my patriotism this time.... any plan guys? i guess it will so crowded everywhere... Happy 50th birthday Malaysia ya!! [lame]

alrite, here comes my decades ago updates...... (let the pics done the job)
first up is Chee Wah's 21st birthday..... it was not that fun nite though but its glad to meet up all the hing dais and jimuis.. coz nowadays we seldom meet up, they have their business to busy on.. not like last time we met up at least once a week...we used to watch new release movie together but now its not the case anymore... just wonder why....
Pics time.......

clothes checked!

make up checked! =P

nice cake!! (Happy Birthday)

handsome boy & pretty girls.....

guess mei wen is enjoying huh? hehe

drinking time!! i'm pretty sure chee wah will faint this time... coz everyone is chasing after him..

Yam Seng!! the end..... (Wat u doing, sau kuan?) =P

Oh NO....... KKK....

2007-08-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

guys.. its friday!!.. quite a tiring day for me.. class from 8am till 3pm.... then playing badminton then rush back to watch the world badminton championship.... omg.. i oni managed to watch the third set... our malaysian men doubles vs. Japan.... tat my most 'chi kek' moment of the day... keeping shouting like ah siao.... couldn't sit properly on the sofa while they are playing... so standing while watching.......

the point were really close during the third set.... there were many times where malaysia is heading by 3 points and japan team really catch up very quickly... all the audience (of course 90% is malaysian) were very gan jieong coz the atmosphere was so intense..... and i can feel the pressure on KKK and Tan beng Hong... even the coaches were gan jieong too...... it is because that is the malaysian team win, they will guaranteed get the bronze medal..... and i'm really praying hard for them.... and guess wat.. i dun think god or guan yin did hear my pray.. haha.. they lost!!! cant blame them for all coz they really trying very hard in terms of defence... and i think Tan Beng hong kinda not fully concentrated while KKK is working his ass off to save for many times... its really frustrated whenever the shuttlecock din passed the net... haiz......

talked too many craps ard.. haha.. once get started.. cant stop de wo...... lastly... i got something to say to the Japanese Team.... Nei Hou Ye!! and good luck for next game.. coz our the other malaysian doubles team is waiting for u!! hahahaha......

its saturday now..... the day which i like the most... just chilling....hahaha..... and ard got plan got saturday... will go to Chee Wah's 21st Birthday celebration at his house.... yeah, finally can have fun.... Happy Birthday Chee Wah.... big boy ard lo.... haha.... all d best dude.... =)

Finally.....

2007-08-16T21:02:00.000+08:00

wah... finally finished my law assignment... din feel happy abt tat coz FA3 assignment is next plus its an individual one so everything has to be done myself.... omg.. going to faint ard....had been staying at home for 2 days just doing that.. keeping procrastinate coz the world badminton championship is on this week..... so always do half way then go watch tv and continue doing the shit...... hehe... cant change that attitude la.. tv is like my necessities la... cant live without it.....

have to update my blog frequently coz one of the readers start complaining ard... (u know who u are).. hehe... nothing much special happen this week..... so dunno wat to talk abt... on ya, my dad got his new cambry today.. and its really nice la unfortunately is not mine... and my bro's old wira had been sold for RM16,000.. i wonder who's the fella whom bought the car... coz i dun think that old wira worth 16k lo... anyway, looking forward to drive the new car but dun think dad will let lo.....

have u been hate and like a particular person at the same time? i had been through this yesterday... the one whom i had crush on did something which makes me hate it... and i tell myself not to talk to him unless he talks to me for the next few days... until today i had broke my promise... haiz.... how can he got the charm/power to make me behave like that?
sometimes feel a bit san fu coz sumtimes i take things seriously whereas he's not.... i can un tat coz he treats me as one of his normal frens oni.. what for take things so serious rite? so i'm just mad at myself.... i dun wan let him control my emotion... i dun wan him be the X factor which brighten up my day (although he is)

and to my hing dai ji mui out there.... dun worry so much abt me ya... i'm just release my feeling here oni.... honestly, got a bit pressure whenever u guys ask me abt the progression.... coz u know la... ur fren here neither miss malaysia nor miss world wo..... summore ur fren's confidence level oni cukup cukup makan oni.... i scare will let u guys down if i fail again (din success once)... but i promise i'll try my very best...... and hopefully u guys can see my effort compared last time and now.... besides, i'm really looking forward whoever in our gang (so called SAD... Single, Available & Desperate gang) will bring us some good news...... haha... Jia You everyone!!!!

kinda late now... still got long day to go tmr.... see ya!! =P

Very First Time....

2007-08-05T00:16:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.... i'm writing my very first blog in my blogspot! it takes me quite some time to set up and finally here comes my blogspot designed by me.. the one and the only me on earth.. Rachel yap pooi kwan.. cheng cheng cheng... haha.. wat a cocky introduction.....

why wait until now oni create a blog? many ppl might asked... erm.. suddenly wanna have one lo.. =P actually wanna find a way to express myself and here is the place.... wanna write down things that i wan to remember and be able to read back wat i had been through in the future... thats my purpose....

Today was the typical saturday for me... how typical? wake up, watch tv, went for dancing class..... stuff like tat lo... not typical enough? hehe..... now i really realised tat i'm kinda of person who likes to ask question and answer it myself... cant u see? sorry but tats me... =P

I'm quite emotional sumtimes... same goes for today... i have a weird feeling today and i cant explain tat... and this weird feeling seem will come once in a while.... its like weather... i still haven't find a way to handle it rather than letting it takes over me. My confidence level is fluctuated.... sumtimes i can be very confident but there are times when i cant. Very abstract huh? Lets be specific... i think the most confident moment for me is when i'm in my room when the door is locked, i can do watever i like, i can sing out loud in the bathroom.. but once i'm at outside or standing in front of ppl, i get screwed up... seriously.... all the things which i had prepared for usually din worked out when it comes to perform. I can oni blame myself for this..... i promise myself tat i'll find a way to solve it but it needs time....

Alrite, i think thats all for the emotional part... i already stated here is my wonderland meaning tat it consists of happiness, sadness, emotional part and etc...... thats called variety... hehe...
Here comes the funny pic that i took on thursday by my group member, sau kuan (she will be shown on the next pic)... haha... obviously i'm in the washroom of Taylors.. haha. =P hope this will get ppl smile when they look at this.. cute rite?

dun touch my little ear la. =P
(omg, look at my eyebags!)

Its kinda late now... still have to work tmr... hopefully will have a good week..... dun put some much of expectation on it or else it will ended up with disappointment.... instead, u'll get surprise out of it.... thats wat i have learnt this week so far.... nites!! =)